Considering I want this new blog to be more personal than my previous avenues, I figured I should probably give you some background information into WHO I am and what my story is. In this excerpt I want to give a short introduction to my dealings with live and mental illness, so I do have to give a trigger warning here.
For as long as I can remember I have ALWAYS been an anxious child. In my last year of High School I got quite ill. No one could figure it out, and after what felt like years, but was more realistically a month, of not sleeping, not eating, and constantly feeling like shit (for lack of a better word) I was diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety. THIS is where my life was forever changed, and the ultimate start to my story.
I was put on medication, and played the waiting game. I saw multiple psychologists, and tried many things to ease my physical symptoms, and to help myself mentally. I reached a point in my life where I was able to eat, able to sleep and to sleep in my own bed, and to function like a normal 18-year-old.
I went into a state of functioning where I was no longer severely depressed, and I was happy to an extent and doing things as normally as I could be, but my anxiety was still present. I continued to soldier through life for many years, moving out of home, studying at uni (and dropping out multiple times – that’s another story to tell), and eventually getting a full-time job.
In 2015, nearly exactly 4 years later, I had a relapse. A very dark, very symptomatic relapse. I was depressed, I was highly anxious, I was suicidal. I was nauseous 24/7, I wasn’t sleeping, I was never hungry, I had so many ‘sick days’ from work, and ultimately I was just tired of living.
Thanks to a psychologist, my boss, my family, my amazing partner, and my GP, I managed to start to find ways to combat this shit dark time of my life, and even though it has taken quite some time since my relapse, I am now at an amazing, healthy and happy stage of my life.
THIS is why I want to share my story, and share the tips and tricks I have gathered along the way. To help you, if you are suffering, to overcome what you are going through, and to act as a friendly reminder that life DOES and W I L L get better!
If there is anything you want me to talk about in more depth, let me know in the comment section below. x